Stumbled in the Dark

Long ago on your silver steed,
We rode far into a sunset
Filled
Dreams
Hopes
Life

But I guess the sunset turned to dusk
Dusk turned to dark
Dark turned us around.

We stumbled
We fell
We stepped all over ourselves
And our hearts.

It's too bad we never
looked for a light
to turn us back around

First Prize

Your head hones
The sounds of her
Voice.

Your eyes excited
By everything she
Shows.

Her head blessed
With a golden crown.

My head cursed
With raven feathers.

Her eyes outshine
The sun.

My eyes eclipsed
By the moon.

Her smile brilliant
And shimmers with
Soft lips.

My smile bland
And forces itself
Across my face.

I do not have to think
Long

To understand why a prize
showered

In Gold
In Silver
In Shimmer
In White

Is the desirable choice.

I fought with my words
My eyes
My gesture of kindness.

But it will never amount
To the Medal of Pride
You deserve.

A 4 Year Dream

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.
Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

To Escape Never-Ever Land

And why'd I sing Hallelujah?
If it meant nothing to ya?

Are you not mine
Everything.

Are you not mine
All.

Who else is there in Heaven or Earth,
but You?

Why am I still wallowing
In Peter Pan's Neverland?

I am a lost girl,
I won't ever grow up,
To be a woman.

It's easy to distract
With games
With gambles,
With greed,
With grime.

I can dance
With my Shadow
All day and night.

I can chase It to all the ends
Of the World.
And like a wild-goose
It'll have me end
Up where I began.

With myself.

Is that my life?
Is that my everything?
Is that the beginning
and End?

I choose to walk away from my Shadow.
I choose to walk forward.

Until I am a woman
Who can walk straight
Please,

Take my hand
Walk with your little girl,
Until her Shadows are no more.

Colors Tell Time

Sometimes I slow down
When I see that Yellow Light
Flash.

I slide on the break and ease
To a
Stop.

But this time,
I tried to speed through
It.

I tried to control
The fact I was too slow to make
It.

The Red Light Flashed
Suddenly.

I wasn't ready and slammed
the break
Hard.

I lurched foward
In my seat
Bang.

My head hirt the steering wheel
And I am knocked out
Cold.

My Car spins around and faces
Traffic coming at it
Fast.

My forehead bleeds
My heart stops
Now.

I wake up in a dream
My eyes open
Wide.

Why did you turn on the Red Light?
Why didn't you let me go
Through.

You thought you could outrun
My Clock,
Stupid.

Now, you must sit
And Wait
And Watch
And Wade
And Wander
And Wish
And Want
And Wallow
And Whince
And Whine
And Whisper

Prayers for a Green Light
Know it will come.

I open my eyes again.
I am in a hospital
bed.

My head hurts,
My heart aches,
My spirit cries.

Prayers for a quick recovery,
prayers for a green light,
prayers for a better tomorrow.

Our Song Ain't a Slammin' Screen Door, But it Was Inevitable

Let me be the one
Who calls you baby
All the time,

And when you're in doubt,
and when you're in danger,
Take a look all around,
and I'll be there.

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons were changing
And waves were crashing
And stars were falling all for us
Days grew longer and nights grew shorter
You did show me, I could be the one
Somehow...
And Until then,

I'll fly, fly across the sky
And I'll leave, I'll leave it all behind
If you'll be here, here with me tonight
And

I'll hold my breath
And lose the feeling
The I'm on my own.

Do you remember when we were just kids
And cardboard boxes took us miles from what we would miss
Schoolyard conversations taken to heart
And laughter took the place of everything we knew we were not
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
Because I think of how my mistakes
Have made your heart break
So baby, I'm, baby I'm here.

While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there,
back where I'd love to be.

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you,
Is to hold me now that he's not around
Because I pushed away.

Did he leave me when he found me,
And now I wish'd I stayed.

Are you lonely?
Cause I'm tired.
Are you missing me again- oh no-
You're not.

You used to say,
Take a look at my girlfriend,
She's the only one I got.
But now, she's not much of a girlfriend,
Thank God, now that she's not.

So, I beg. I plead:

Please don't throw me away
Cause I'm still here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
So, I guess I dare to dream.
I dare to wonder,
Dare to hope

To be your last first kiss.

Until then,
I'll disappear, take flight on the wind of wishing you were here
Fading light, like a star whose life has been gone for years.

What the chalkboard said

 I guess those times that you loved so much:

Sitting on a speckled couch;
Driving through the W-burger place;
Curling up side by side
Watching that Island change those lives;
Cruising with the windows down;
Singing our songs:
The Promise,
Smother Me,
Momentum...

Those times.
So far ago.
Though so many smiles,
So many laughs,
So many tears,
So many smirks,
So many jeers,
So many jokes,
So many squeals,
So many snorts,
So many sighs,
So many pleas,
So many - So many- So many.

Yet, you are able to erase
All.

You took your hand and smeared
It Across the Universe
And then turned away from the board.
Then told me to deal with it all.

I look at the chalk and pastels
The colors blurred all together
The good with the bad
The happy with the sad.

I want to understand it.
I want to try to re-write it.
I want to care about it.

You tell me to move on.
But how can I when three years are nothing
But smears on a chalkboard.

I'm not angry.
I'm not mad.

I just don't understand
How a man who loved so much
Can so easily wipe away those moments
And never even look back.